Wednesday 24 December 2014

Jesus Christ has come into town !!

Come on Bue!! It's Christmas and you are feeling so low ?? Nooooo this is not happening!! Uh uhnnn!

(Sing it)

You better watch out
You better not cry
Bue you better not pout
I'm telling you why
Santa Claus is coming to town.... partey partey !!!

He's making a list.. eeee
And checking it twice
Gonna find out Who's naughty and nice - oh yeah you bad people of the world!
Santa Claus is coming to town

He sees you when you're sleeping
He knows when you're awake
He knows if you've been bad or good .. oopsy
So be good for goodness sake!

O! You better watch out!
You better not cry :D
Better not pout
I'm telling you why
Santa Claus is coming to town

Bue!! Take the next verse...

"Oh Jesus is born
Into my life
I better not pout
I tell myself why
Cos Jesus Christ has come into town !!"

Meerrrrrrry Christmas!! :* :* :* :* :*

PS. Hurray I'm posting on Chriatmas. I feel awesome !!!! No more pouts !!! 

Tuesday 23 December 2014

A Train Journey

I was standing in a railway Station. An enormous train was approaching it. I wanted to board it and see where it takes me.

It stopped.

I got in and the journey began. I had a very comfortable seat.  The view outside was so beautiful cherry blossoms on either sides of the railroad.

I requested its services and was a little discontent with what the train management offered. I complained. The management concluded that they will stop providing those services.

I decided to get off the next station. I got off but thought tonmyself that I should be content with what I've got so I got on it before it started to leave.

Now I had a less comfortable seat and the management was unable to grant my requests for a first class seating.

Now the journey seemed more important to me than my comfort so I decided to sit tight and enjoy the beautiful b ore outside the window. Cities and lots of busy people I enjoyed all the new things that I had seen and was very content.

Then I saw the engine when the tracks curved still majestic and steadfast. I looked beyond it and saw where it was headed. I could almost see it that magical place carved on the horizon.

For some reason I knew not I was asked to give up my seat. I was now standing but nothing mattered for I only dreamt of the destination the train was taking me.

I was standing by the door feeling the wind against me. I felt so alive and wonderful. When suddenly I felt a push. I tried hard to hang on. With all my energy I held to the sides. "I'm almost there I can't let go now", I told myself. I continued to stand there. Another push and holding firmly I turned back and saw that the management of the train was trying to push me out. I didn't know why. I held my guard and never let go.

The train was moving at a great speed. But I had no choice for I knew now that it was not my destination. I let go of my grip and they pushed me out.

I closed my eyes and prayed. I felt warm hands catch me embrace me and place me on the ground. I opened my eyes shocked that I was still alive and did not feel any pain. Not even a scratch.

It was a miracle, I has to be. When I let go, I knew I would never have come through this alive, by here I stood firm on the ground as the train whistles past me in great speed. The dust and stones that flew with it hurt my eyes.

I cried. I did not know if I should grieve over being thrown out or be glad that I survived.

I felt the power of the Most High. I knew He was the one who secured me and saved me from the pain and agony that the fall would have brought me.

I looked ahead of the train and beyond thw trees and plainsnI.could still.see the sestination. I decided to walk toward it.

PS: I like train journeys and love to have a window seat and feel the wind blow against my face. Its such a fun thing. But one should see the way my brother and I fight over a window seat.

Tuesday 2 December 2014

Putting myself to sleep

I can never have nothing to write about. 

With pleasant music playing in Pandora.
Lights off. Cozy in my bed. The fluorescent cross in my room is glowing! Another night trying to fall asleep.
I feel so peaceful nothing is in my mind (I'm convincing myself that it is so). Well I have an exam tomorrow but am done studying (by the grace of God who helped me make fruitfull use of time).
I'm working in Japan's time zone for some reason. So I'm trying hard to fall asleep in regular time.

Life is beautiful. Christmas is in the air and in my house. The semester is about to end. Peaceful thoughts.. inner peace...
I guess this post is just me putting myself to sleep :D its still fun.

Going home for Christmas. After a long time it's gonna be a usual Christmas. Nothing to grieve about and the family together.
Mue is comming over next semester. :) I ll not be alone while writing my blog posts then.
I'm just about to wish my close friend V a splendid married life.

I gave mue a list of food items I have to cover during my trip home this winter. My favourite "oily eggplant" :D

This post is probably best named as a thoughts before going to sleep. One of my thought which I wanna talk about is..
God has been so good to me. He knows what I need and what I don't. He always gives me more than I deserve. I am genuinely amazed at the way he takes care of me. He is also such a comfort when I am alone.
Noooow this is starting to take shape and make sense :D

Lovely night. The starts are shining somewhere outside the window am sure though I can't see. The snow that started melting during the day starting to freeze into solid ice.  I have a full stomach of yummy food which my room mate S cooked :)

I think I'm gonna fall asleep now.

Thank you Lord.

P.S.: My other roommate taught me this technique of thinking peaceful thoughts to fall asleep. Looks like it will wOrk. If it dosent she ain't gonna have peaceful thoughts for a while ;) :D

Thursday 6 November 2014

Fruitful

I cannot believe that my previous blog was about laziness too... grin.

Not many days ago I was laying in my bed (as I have been doing a lot lately) watching useless stuff and very apparently wasting time but feeling so guilty at the same time. I'm not making any use of the very precious time given to me by God.

Not many days before that day I read a portion of the book called 'In praise of slowness' which educated me about 'time-sickness' which is the fear that time is fleating and 'karachi' meaning death by overwork. The remedy was to slow down. I who was not at all time-sick, should not have paid heed to such an article. I nevertheless did and did not do my work. Messed up one of my assignments .I don't regret that very much as I should. Luckily it was only worth a few points.

My posts seldom talked about something I messed up. But this one will end with a sad note that I did not still succeed in overcoming laziness and continue to be a slave of worldly comforts such a sleep and rest.

Rest is very much needed but what is a restful body with a restless mind and soul.

This week in the small group meeting we happened to discuss the parable of the Vine and the branches. How the branches that are not fruitful are being chopped off and burned by the vinedresser. I don't want to be not fruitful.

Ok let me look at it in another way, what if I kept working and do not waste any time. Am I called fruitful then? It's important that I spend time doing the right things. As a branch if I try to take root into the ground I will not be fruitful, for lack of sunlight will cause wilt in turn. I will try to be a good active girl from on , find the right things to do, and rest well.. not just my body but my mind and soul too and be fruitful. I would greatly depend on your prayers for this!

This post is long already,I ll probably have more posts about laziness. Hopefully it should be about how I conquered it !!!! Muhuhahahahahaha...
P.S.: Wouldn't you agree that writing a blog is a fruitful thing to do? Yay!
Also !!!! Don't you smell Christmas in the air? !!!!!!

Sunday 28 September 2014

Laziness overtakes

It's 11:00pm and Today calls for a blog.

I woke up in time for church had all the time in the world to get ready (1.5 hours was just the right amount of time considering I wash my hair on Sunday’s). But I lay on the bed snoozing my alarm every 10 mins for an entire one hour and just lying lazily, not even sleeping. Think of how wonderful it is to lazy around.


I went in time for mass a little under dressed than I normally would, thanks to my laziness. I will wash my hair tomorrow J .. I will :D

I came back from church by 11:30, Skyped with my parents as I ate, then decided to chill for a while and slept off for another two hours.

I know these things are normal, then I woke up at 4pm and wanted a snack, ate then I had to start my work on the Term Paper (Initial Problem Statement) as today is the deadline, yes today 11:59 pm. So what am I doing blogging? More on that later.

Finally arrived the time to PANIC!!! Laziness and PANIC most certainly go hand in hand.
Also thinking of this makes me PANIC more. "A little sleep, a little slumber, a little folding of the hands, and poverty will come upon you like a vagabond." - Proverbs 6:10 

So I prayed that God should help me complete the work on time. I knew it would take a lot of time, I was planning to use my ‘One-Time No-Reason Skipping of Deadline’ for today’s submission.

Then I sat and worked, relaxed, listening to a new playlist on YouTube that I discovered. Music doesn’t distracted me when I work. Neither does my friends chatting or even the sound of the building falling apart :P

Today morning I was complaining to my cousin that I didn’t feel like studying, but now I was rather enjoying the work, reading journal papers and excited to learn new things.I finished and submitted the work by 10pm and had my dinner, I have plenty of time left in this day, here I am blogging J

God helped, I am sure J ! I am going to now rest in peace (not “RIP”) and look forward to His helping hand in the coming week in my work and in overcoming laziness. Tennis class 8am tomorrow :’( Also I am typing my blog lying on the bed, bad news for back bone :( Am almost done, will fix this next time.

PS: Here is the link to the playlist I was talking about, it has most of the songs that are sung in my Church!! http://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL323D9781654AF975


Wednesday 13 August 2014

Counting my blessings .. literally

I have been a lot more bored lately than usual. I see facebook posts and many of them literally talk to me thode quotes for life !! So the sad me read this post which said
'The best thing you can do for you happiness is to start counting your blessings.... right now'
I was like... I wanna be happy . Right now so am doin it right now..
Lets count
1. I ate well (oops this really is the first thing I cOuld think of)
2. I have a bed to sleep on and am right now resting well on it.Typing with my left hand as my right is under the head.
3. I have a phone.. and a nice place I can pour my thoughts into.. called life-of-bue !! (Hurray cheers for my blog)
4. This should have been first (I m just being spontaneous) . I have an awesome God.
5. I still hope that the world can be a better place to live in.  And I wanna contribute to the cause.
6. I'm loved by people around me.
7. I have a great family that nourishes me.

I know this can go forever. . I m gonna let it flow for five more minutes :)

8. I m half asleep.. wait that's not a blessing. . I m given a chance everyday to improve myself and become a better child of God.
9. I have food stored up in the fridge for  tomorrow
10. I don't deserve anything but I still get everything.
11. Last one for tonight . I always end up happy at the end of writing my post no matter how I am when I begin.

Share your blessings and attribute it to God :) who else could be the source of all the wonderful things in the world. ..
Ok I better click post before my vision completely blurs.

Tuesday 12 August 2014

Peace was taking it's time this time...

I stood near the gate and called out to the street .. 'Peace .. '
Are you there
'Peace..
Walk into my house..
Can you hear me?'
'I'm here' I heard a reply from out of the crowded street... why does peace have to be in a different disguise every time.. sheesh...
'Hi hello there.. so buddy can you tell me what colour clothes your wearing today I ain't able to recognize you... ' It's weird I can hear a voice and I dont see anybody near me that could be peace.

'I'm wearing a Green T-shirt' the voice said.
Oh come on.. does today have to be st. Patrick's day. Everyday is Green with money.. in this world. This is really not helping.
'Peace... pls can you try to find me...
I'm the girl holding the HOPE sign standing at the gate..'
'Ooookay... girl don't you worry.. I spotted ya.. near the gate.. chubby cheeks.. I ll be there in a moment.. just listen to some Gospel music on Pandora till then !! Xoxo... '
'Okie dont take too long..'
Meanwhile I'm writing my blog post.. Wow.. and BAM! there arrives peace.. !!!

Sunday 27 July 2014

Behind every BUE is her MUE

18257 
18257 Rupees ? That's close to my first salary.
18257 Kilo meters? That's a lot more than my distance from home. 
Why bother.. With this odd nombre...
18257 days!!! What? It doesn't still make sense to you?
I'm so excited, in 6 days it's going to be 18262 days. If someone gave you so many days what would you do with it?

Here is a soul that gave nearly half of that number of days for me.

One soul that would never smile when I cry and find happiness in my smile. 

The reason I believe in true love.

When I'm experiencing a beautiful thing that I feel so happy about and think 'someone has got to come and experience this with me' there's one person who's just waiting to do it. 

And when I hear her say that her life is meaningful because of me, I realise my life's meaning.

When there's a tornado hitting my town where I live away from home, there would be one hitting my home too.. And then when I'm safe, it dissolves.

Food for life! Food and nourishment in all forms to both my body and soul. A complete meal I will never lack. Thanks to her...

A witness to Life of Bue! 

18257 days
49 years 11 months and 26 days
In these days she's been called a baby and then a mother. 

18262
50 years
Can't believe she is going to be half a century old. 

She is still the pristine bud, always blooming to spread the scent of love. Setting an example for her baby girl (bue) and everyone else. 

5 days to go. And here s Bue cheering her..  * * !!! GO MUE GO MUE !!! * * 

Wednesday 23 July 2014

Gimme that Extra Peace

I'm jus' gonna talk about this nice song that I've liked listening to lately...

Gimme that
Gimme that

Well lets listen to it , shall we?
Gimme that
Gimme that

Joy
Extra Peace
Love that will never change

Gimme that
Gimme that

If we humble our selves people,
fall on our face,
and ask God everything in me that's not right
take it away.

See what you've done to me, I'm not the same old me
You took away everythin' and now you're my everything

And He's the God who wipes my tears and provides enough to pay all my bills.. B-)
Gimme that
Gimme that

PS: Pandora Internet Radio App (Available in US and Canada) is a great place to spot new songs :)
Whoopie!! short and sweet.. that's the way posts should be.

Monday 21 July 2014

In transit

I walked to the bus stop. Took a bus. Got off at the train station. took the train. Transferred to another train got off the second train. Walked a few minutes. Reached where I wanted to.

Now I'm sitting at my desk but I am still in transit. I boarded this vehicle, while I was still being formed in my mother's womb. Little did I know where I was heading. Just hung in there waiting for the next train. Then the time came and I arrived in my mother's arms. Ruled the world for a while, with my own throne tied to the top of the train.

Slowly I saw everyone around me with their own thrones ruling the world. Then realized that I'm one like a 'zillion' others. Got off that train and took a bus. Well now people around started telling me what my destination was for that's where everyone wanted to go. I was like .. ' Okaiee.. if you say so!'. I walked, sat on my mother's lap while my dad was riding the scooter, took an auto rickshaws, buses , cars and  trains.
Oh, my goodness.. how can I forget my bi-cycle <3 <3 :) Ok did I finish mentioning all modes of transport? Oops forgot the boats and air-crafts.. I would love to travel in a ship someday... and someday soon :D (impatient me :P )

I thought I shouldn't mention the times I got lazy and stubborn and when people had to drag me with them, anyway life s not always perfect :D My parents certainly didn't spare the rod and spoil the child (this applies to me and not my brother).

Then time passed and I started to understand why everyone wanted to go there. it is a place where all hope is catered to, some people call it heaven. I call it that way too but what it really means to me is a place in the arms of God.

Now.... I really knew where I wanted to go. I started running, shouting and singing and dancing and laughing all the way. I will run all the way if I have to. I ll take the bus even if it is jam packed and I will take it even if there is not a soul in it. And I decided to plan my trip so that I don't end up in a maze.

Eventually I ended up in a maze. And the visibility is so low, I can only see the present day in front of me. I'm a little confused. But the trip so far has be good, I know something has kept me belted to my seat. and cushioned me during bumps, I've never starved. I'm not scared about getting lost in this maze. Maybe, I will work my way out of it or maybe the maze will miraculously disappear and those golden gates will be in sight, then I will walk at my own pace, with eyes fixed on them, glowing in awe, until I reach the destination.

I cannot clearly see the golden gates, but I picture them in my head. its crazy to travel to some place you haven't seen. But I have seen it. In good things and good people. I will still leap and dance as I go.

I see people around me walking slowly, tired and weary of the journey. They say 'I had to change so many buses, it s so tiring'. 'My next flight is delayed indefinitely'.

Here's one picture if you can't picture it !
Friends, humans, fellow-beings, the tickets are booked. Make sure you are there to board the flight on time. Take the ship though it may take you longer to reach but its what you should do. Drive. Swim, Crawl. Skate. Find yourself on the top of a cliff? Just jump..! (Don't forget the parachute:) Life is not a race, you can't loose to another person. But you can win by helping each other and cheering everyone. And if someone has to take a different route than you, just let them go. Stuck in a maze? Keep Calm and maze on.

Oh! I'm just waiting to feel that relief when I reach the destination. Its gonna be the longest "phewwwwwwww... " I ever said. :D Phew..

PS: I specially pray for all the victims of air, road and sea accidents. Those who lost their life in the Malaysian Airline MH17 aircraft that was shot down on 17th July 2014, lets pray that they reach their new destination.

Oopsie this post got so long :(

Thursday 10 July 2014

Hopiness

Hopiness .. did I spell it wrong?
Nope :) Hope leading to happiness.

One very fine summer day while I was enjoying my strawberries for breakfast, I was put in this state where I find out that I have one less reason to be happy.
But sometimes that makes me feel that I had lost the only reason to be happy.

But if you find a vulnerability , U have to patch it as soon possible otherwise  its not gonna be useful to anyone be it a software or a girl here (wow am I a super dooper computer personnel). So I guess thats what God does from time to time.

Alright where was I, Oh yeah the strawberries...
There you go.. then I told myself you're alive eating yumm strawberries on a bright summer day and u say u have no reason to be happy. Sooo absent minded.

Speaking of being absent minded. I think I have too many things that come to my mind when I think about what makes me the opposite of sad. So I dont know where I started and dont know what I'm typing about now.

When my day gets hard, I ..
Oh oh.. now I remember what I was talking about... hopiness..
Yeah !! when my day gets hard.. I hope it was for the best (whatever happened) and that it could have been worse and hoping this I start hoping for good things that finally makes me happy.

How plain nd boring that sounds.. but why are people sad then?

I guess they dont dare to hope.

I'd bet on hoping to have a juicy mango served to me in Iowa than cry over a lost google glass .. did I say google glass.. I was jus gonna say eye glass :D :D

Fine... u wanna talk about it?... lets talk.. I lost a google glass.. ya... I know what can be worse right? But God loves me and he helped me get out of that messy situation that made me feel like the most irresponsible person in the world. Now am happy!!!

Wow this post is getting really long.. there is gonna be so much to say about hoping. Infact this whole blog is about hopiness. And how I found hopiness in God.

Let me say one more thing and call it a night (thumbs up). When I feared that the sadness will burden me and suck me into a world where tears were all that I could see through my eyes, I was shocked to see that my shoulders felt light. It was like as if someone dropped a large rock from a nebula (the rocks in this nebula i know are very dense and are a million times heavier than any heavy rock one can imagine of.. anyway) on me and I 'm standing here helpless and trembling in fear. Waiting for the worst. One hour passes. One day passes. One week passes .. where did it go?? One month passes.. I see the truth. It Was dropped on me surely.. who bore it? I could never have born it.

Look at me now walking about freely. I look up sometimes still in fear what if it falls. But I dare to put my hope in Christ. He carried a cross for me. This rock should be a little harder but.. He is God!
So I praise Him for giving me peace..   hope and happiness.. what why am I using two words when there can be just one... hopiness!

PS: Because am Happy.. this was how I titled this post. Tot hopiness was better. But lets just sing 'happy' and be happy...

The real PS: Happy people arn't really 'not sad', they must hav found someone to carry their burden. If you haven't found the someone.. go for the Best.. I know you deserve it! If there is a queue just leave it at the foot of the cross.

Saying this makes me happy too!! So allow me.. Praise the Lord!
This post is dedicated to my sweet cousin A on her birthday who brings hopiness into my life.

Thursday 8 May 2014

It's just You and me

The Lord will protect me. The Lord will make His face shine upon me. I will rest in peace in His arms. He loves me. 

Where will I run? You are always by my side. 
When I'm awake at night You send me Your guardian angel. You give me rest.
When my mind is lost in thought You send me songs to fill my mind with You thoughts.
When I need you, You are here.
When my heart is burdened, You take it from me and carry it in my place and so my burden feels light. Lord what would I do without You.
You watch over me all day and all night. 
Your love gives me hope to live for You.
You are the friend In need and a true one indeed.
You make me sing and dance for joy in Your presence.
I have no reason to be sad.. And no reason to fear.. For I know You will bless me.
Lord you show the right path. You guide me into fresh and green pastures. Lead me to the cross.

Lord it's just You and me. And you are all that matters to me, I belong to you. 


Wednesday 30 April 2014

Ah.. How Relaxing..

Ah.. How Relaxing.. I’m half way done with my Master’s.. or at least I think I might finish in another year. But it has been a success so far. I shouldn't be talking before I get my grades, but let me just say it when I still can. ;)
So I think one might guess why I am happy today.. If you can’t guess then go back to paragraph 1 of this blog post J !

What a relaxing feeling to take away your burden of project work, exam(I still have an exam next week but I feel relaxed anyway), presentation, reporting to your Professor.. ah.. I feel like I’m in a spa (although I’ve never been in one before, but I guess it should be something like this).

How relaxing to finish two semesters (almost), and how very nice to listen to this song. I love listening to this song ‘What wondrous love is this O my soul , O my soul’ and I’m listening to it right now.. It totally makes me feel God’s presence, that in turn makes me feel at peace.  I think ya’ll should listen to it too .. 


What a beauuutiful feeling when you are going to be home in 13 days, after 9 months. Ooooo.. I feel like I’m floating on water.
“What wondrous love is this
that caused the Lord of bliss
to send such perfect peace to my soul.”

What a great feeling when you have things in place, just the way you wanted (or needed). Well I wanted and needed a summer internship, I also needed a major professor for my MS. The pressing needs of the recent future resolved. Whooopiee..
“When we’re from sorrow free we’ll sing on, we’ll sing on
When we’re from sorrow free we’ll rise and joyful be
And through eternity we’ll sing on”

What a nice feeling to see the new grass and the springing buds; the showers from the sky that pour the blessing of life to the earth.. and also thunder storms, that’s also needed… becaaauuse… uh.. so that I can sing with the thunder and I’ll sing thunderous praises to God because I wouldn't be writing this blog I weren't so relaxed and I wouldn't be so relaxed if God didn't take care of me well. I’m now convinced this is why there is thunder J
"Fresh and green are the pastures, He give me repose." - Psalm 23

The image on the left, is the path is take everyday and you see a tree with new leaves sprouting. Literally fresh and green are these pastures that I trod , how sweet Lord to have spring time.


I cleaned my room J I do that when am relaxed! And I like a clean place to pray in J Hope God also gives me a clean heart.

Now.. I’m just gonna sit back and relax more and let God work in my life, and sing the rest of that song. Isn’t this what is called Perfect Peace?
Join me ! La la la la la la..
“To God and to the Lamb I will sing, I will sing,

Jehovah, Great ‘I AM’ and to the Son of Man, I will sing” 

Monday 24 March 2014

Fun with the Cross

I recently read in “The Black Book” (It’s a book that was distributed in my church and it includes some form of preparation for each day in lent) a question which went,
                                   “What is lent about?”
Option a: Fasting and Abstinence
Option b: Baptism
Option c: The passion of Christ
I was shocked to read the answer as Option b: Baptism. Aren’t options a and c more relevant? But coming to a consensus, I realized that option b is most suitable because during Easter we renew our Baptismal Vows. But then came upon me the realization that Baptism is the sacrament of initiation, that means we are just getting started. We are preparing for a life in Christ.

Which means reading “The Black Book” daily is not gonna end with Lent, its gonna continue as reading “The Bible” for the rest ov oour laivesss. This is gonna be so tiring.

In fact I’m already tired, that I almost gave up ‘unabstaining’ from what I had tried to abstain from during this lent. But then the day came that I was sad about this and I was in church.

I was early to church as the bus service on that day (during Spring Break) required that I either come 35 minutes early to church for mass or go 20 minutes late. Having arrived early, I was asked to carry the cross in procession at the beginning of that mass. I was super excited about participating in the liturgy in this new Church. The last time I had a chance to do this was few months ago where I took the offertory up to the priest. I get excited about such things J

T minus 2 minutes and I was standing next to the priest with a heavy wooden cross in hand that supposedly costs 14000$ and I dare not drop it, ready to walk in procession. But then I wanted a photo of me carrying the cross and I expressed the same to Father R who was right next to me. He who is the kindest of people looked around to see if anyone had a camera. I suggested we use my phone camera in my pocket.

T minus 1 minute and Father R was holding the cross from my hand and I took out the phone and handed it over to another kind soul and I took back the cross and the photo was taken.




T minus 0 minutes and the procession went on smoothly led by the girl firmly carrying the cross upto the alter and the mass began. And her prayer was,
                              “Lord help me carry the cross
                                                            Tonight and always.”


Well it was a fun experience carrying the cross, so even if lent is only a preparation to carry the cross the rest of our lives, I’m sure God will make a way and make it an exciting way. Now I am all motivated :) God knows how to keep me going... I feel Rejuvenated to make this lent a fruitful one !