The Lord accompanied me on another rollercoaster ride.
If you have been to a universal studios amusement park there is a ride called the mummy. (Spoiler about ride ahead) Its a high speed roller coaster ride in the dark. So it starts off like a regular themed universal ride and then it speeds up and all you see is darkness and a few digital images here and there. The ride is too fast to perceive anything.
I went on that ride recently. The whole time I was trying to predict and prepare for the coaster's next steep fall. It was pitch black and was impossible to make such predictions.
Today ended an episode of my life that was similar to that rollercoaster.
It was the scariest ride I have been on. When it began I did not know what I was going for. Perplexed, I sat.. not knowing what I felt. What I was to do. Tried to predict what's gonna happen. There came the first unforseen fall. A disappointment faced. I recovered from it as it wasn't so steep. More confusion and fear filled me the rest of the ride. I was trying to keep my calm, so that, should a photo be taken, my fear wouldn't show. No one shall find out what I'm going through. The climax was nothing but more and more confusion and anxiety.. suddenly I felt that nobody was sitting next to me. God we were supposed to be together on this.
Lost in the loneliness and the bewilderment that the whole situation put me in, I cried and screened but my shouts were lost in the abyss (I dont cry for silly a mmusement park ride I only screem for fun).
I don't care how this gose from here.. i stopped trying to predict the furute of things...this has to end thats all I know. I have absolutely no control over the coaster and there is no other way out except through it. Lost and tired. The ride then suddenly slows down and comes to a lighted area and stops.
What I experienced in the ride cannot be erased. It was a rollercoaster ride to remember. Painful yet real. And look who was quietly sitting next to me the whole time. God!!! God enough roller coasters.. lets go on a long cruise to Hawaii!
The rollercoaster is over without doubt.. as of today.. I will be at peace.. no more anxiety and fear and the next time even though I walk through the valley of shadow of death I will know you are with me God!
Friends sorry for not blogging for so long.. its all because of that rollercoaster ride. I was shivering with fear to type properly :D
PS: The Mummy ride in Universal studios was fun! ;)
