Take Control

I did it again.
Watered and nourished the seedling of darkness instead of the seeds of the fruits of the Holy Spirit. Doing the same things that hurt you again and again.

I look at you like a child that ate candy that it is not supposed to. Always hoping you will overlook my flaws and love me.

This time I know how grave my sins are. And soon the seeds sown in me by the Spirit will die. Do something Lord. Water my seeds.

Discipline me, Father. Teach me what is right. Give me a whacking so I stop messing up my life.  Train me in your ways.

Take control !!

P.S. The fruits of the Holy Spirit are love, joy, peace, patience, kindness,  goodness,  faithfulness, gentleness and self control.

Wash Me

Lord why are there days that look like you are not by my side
But I know you are right here

Dont walk away from me please!
Who can I turn to?
Lord, do you hate my ways?
Am I a shame to you?
Lord, you have given me evrything that I have ever asked for
and I have done nothing good in return.
You presented me a beautiful white gown and a necklace with clear white pearls.
Now I am ashamed to show myself.
Like adam and eve I hide behind the bushes.
I am stained with all my wrong doings.
I lost the pearls you gifted me.
Through my acts of selfishness. I am an epitome of lazines.
Wish I had used the talents that you gave me, better
I went and burried it under unwanted things
and now even what I had is taken away from me
you did not bring this sadness upon me
It is my own doing

Lord is this just a test or are you really gonna leave me form now?
Have you given up one me?
But I know you are right here.
In this empty room that I sit you are sitting right next to me
Seeing me cry, if you had hands you would wipe my tears away
If you willed, you can cleanse me and I shall be whiter than snow. [Psalm 51]

Lord I know that today will pass
my sadness will pass
years of my life will pass
but Your words will never pass away
So I will listen to Your words
and wait until all things pass away
and rest in You.

P.S : No P.S :D.. hahaha I shouldn't be laughing.. shhhh..