Precious

She is a regular girl

Doing her job

Being a friend

Making her meals

In daylight she is

No different from any other person

When the night comes 

and the darkness overtakes

You can see her soft and warm glow

That she is the most precious thing

One can behold

Though indistinct during the day

She captures your heart in the night

Like this lit flower vase

Her heart is always lit

The person she is

No one ever was

Or will be

She is precious

Navigation

Driving on a highway can be the most challenging thing to do. We need to give everything the right amount of attention - not more nor less.

The road, the rules, the rear

The view, the company, what's on air

When we pay too much attention to the rules 

We miss out on the view

We follow the map and try to go the right way

So many exits to take

How many exits can you miss while traveling to a new place

I think it's admissible to miss a few

In life when we are navigating through roads we have never been on

We see an exit coming up in the map

But not paying close attention 

We take an exit too soon or too late

It's the wrong one

Sometime life can reroute and take us in the completely new path

But other times one has to reset and get back on the highway

We would have very much hoped that the first scenario happened

The exit seemed so promising .. I mean it's an exit and it's meant to be taken

We were sure that there is a way to our destination if we take it

We ignored the warnings and "Take a U turn"s and got carried away by the view and the music

But a wrong turn is a wrong turn

We spend fuel, time, thought and effort to find the right way via that exit

It's ok to get carried away

But there comes the painful moment that we realize this is not where we want to go ... Yikes!!

And realize it's time to get back on the highway

We must pick the closest entry

Aceelerate

Hit it with all you got!

Get back on track

Safe on the Highway! Phew!!!! 

Now we are going to be more careful

More responsible about following directions

We know that it is for the best

It's definitely without a doubt for the best

Life is a highway 

Let's keep rolling forward

Follow our hearts and respect everyone else's thoughts :D

Look forward to the new journey ahead

Only check the rear to ensure nothing from back there comes to hurt you

Each onward mile

will be a reason to smile

We have the license to live

Don't stop

Use all your miles!!! 

Backstroke

Another sleepless night and nothing is going right. I shouldn't have taken that afternoon nap.

I went for a swim today evening.
Breast stroke, freestyle and backstroke are what I am familiar with.
I had a good time. I always enjoy swimming and only complain about washing and drying my hair afterward.

As I lay in bed wide awake I think about how my life is in general and the way things are going right now. Just as I lay floating on the water face up paddling my feet and raising my hands out of the water to push forward. All I see is the ceiling of the swimming pool area, my ears submerged in water enough to make me deaf to the noises around.
Should I be worried that I dont know where am headed? Could I bang my head on the wall of the pool or will someone drown my head (my brother and a friend do that to me all the time I try backstroke ... Grrrr) Backstroke requires that you keep your head looking up, no turning to the right or left, and keep going till you reach the end unlike other swimming stokes where you can look forward and know where you are headed.
In spite all this doubt you must relax your body and trust the water to make you float.

I realize I am swimming through life right now doing a backstroke. I can't see anything ahead of me but I look up and know that God "goes before me always".
Even though am flooded with worries the only way out is to let go, relax, float and let myself be carried by the things I am not in control of. And instead of drowning my head in worries I turn to the brighter side and do a backstroke.. and keep doing it till I reach.. and where do I reach? Somewhere. Anywhere not flodded by the worries of the world. Until then I just have to paddle, keep moving, have faith and breathe. I just have to swim and let others swim.... and have fun.

PS: Just floating on my back I just so relaxing... but...  life is not like that :D

Another rollercoaster ride

The Lord accompanied me on another rollercoaster ride.

If you have been to a universal studios amusement park there is a ride called the mummy. (Spoiler about ride ahead) Its a high speed roller coaster ride in the dark. So it starts off like a regular themed universal ride and then it speeds up and all you see is darkness and a few digital images here and there. The ride is too fast to perceive anything.
I went on that ride recently. The whole time I was trying to predict and prepare for the coaster's next steep fall. It was pitch black and was impossible to make such predictions.

Today ended an episode of my life that was similar to that rollercoaster.

It was the scariest ride I have been on. When it began I did not know what I was going for. Perplexed, I sat.. not knowing what I felt. What I was to do. Tried to predict what's gonna happen. There came the first unforseen fall. A disappointment faced. I recovered from it as it wasn't so steep. More confusion and fear filled me the rest of the ride. I was trying to keep my calm, so that, should a photo be taken, my fear wouldn't show. No one shall find out what I'm going through. The climax was nothing but more and more confusion and anxiety..  suddenly I felt that nobody was sitting next to me. God we were supposed to be together on this.
Lost in the loneliness and the bewilderment that the whole situation put me in, I cried and screened but my shouts were lost in the abyss (I dont cry for silly a mmusement park ride I only screem for fun).
I don't care how this gose from here.. i stopped trying to predict the furute of things...this has to end thats all I know. I have absolutely no control over the coaster and there is no other way out except through it. Lost and tired. The ride then suddenly slows down and comes to a lighted area and stops.

What I experienced in the ride cannot be erased. It was a rollercoaster ride to remember. Painful yet real. And look who was quietly sitting next to me the whole time. God!!!  God enough roller coasters.. lets go on a long cruise to Hawaii!

The rollercoaster is over without doubt.. as of today.. I will be at peace.. no more anxiety and fear and the next time even though I walk through the valley of shadow of death I will know you are with me God! 

Friends sorry for not blogging for so long.. its all because of that rollercoaster ride. I was shivering with fear to type properly :D

PS: The Mummy ride in Universal studios was fun! ;)